Sadness

three months ago when I had the good news, i was so excited for the next 9 mos. to come. That excitement has come to and end last weekend when I heard the unexpected news.
At first i couldn't believe it is happening to us but then as hours goes by, i started to recall what went wrong during this time of process.

I got sick at 9 weeks, yes that was the terrible incident but I did not even think that it would affect the baby. I was praying without ceasing everyday that he/she would not be affected with that flu and fever but I started to feel a lot of changes after that week. I even compared my symptoms with some other sister in our church but then, i was not aware what is happening inside my body at that time.

It was really very, very painful but still I thank the LORD for HIS provision on that day. My hubby supposed to work that day but bcoz' he's colleague request for an ex-change so he was off and able to accompany me n Angel to see my OB.

I didn't asked GOD why it happened but I was asking myself what went wrong?

At this time, i couldn't think of anything but just pray and ask GOD to strengthen me and my family to go through this painful process.

In everything that happen I know GOD is in control and HE knows what is best for us so I just fully TRUST HIM to overcome this sadness and painful experience.

Blessing

Ahhh...after few months finally i can blog....

Well recently we had our second gift from GOD. It was really amazing how this process works and patience is one of the key factor aside from FAITH.

I got the confirmation on Oct26 about 7pm when I used the test predictor and can't remember when was the last time i felt that kind of excitement....hehehe....

It was my second doctor's appointment on 14Nov and the baby's heart beat was confirmed, thank GOD. My daughter was so happy and on the following day which was Sunday, it seems like I have a broadcaster and she announce to her friends....

I was surprised when everybody was shaking my hand and telling me congratulations!!!, i didn't even tell anyone yet, except for 2 person....then I realized when my daughter whisper on me saying.....Mommy, I told them already because the doctor says it was confirmed....then I smile........hahahaha...looks like she's having the same happiness and feeling like me.....

This week I am down with terrible flu and slight fever and the migraine was really terrible....uh...huhuh...hope i get better....too bad can't take medicine.....

But overall we are very thankful for this blessing. I just hope the morning sickness will be over and the flu go away........

Visual Acuity- 20/20

Last night while we are having dinner, my daughter and I had a chat. Because she normally took long time to finished her meal I had to monitor and follow-up every single scoop. It was fun though, coz’ I had the chance to chat with her and catch up about school and other activities. During our discussion I happened to share with her those children with eyesight problem. How troublesome to wear spectacle and that was sometimes due to their stubbornness. How she should treasure her health and perfect eyesight. What are the kinds of food she should take to boost the eyesight or at least prevent the degradation.
Here’s how the conversation goes:
Daughter: Why they have eyesight problem?
Mommy: Sometimes due to their genes and most of the time because they abuse their eyes
Daughter: What is genes means? How did they abuse their eyes?
Mommy: Genes means genetic or inherited eyesight problem from mother or father….and abusing was of disobeying their parents…..(I have to think the example…heheh….) like playing PSP or computer games in the dark specially when they are hiding from the parents…
Daughter: Ah, what is inherited means?……
Mommy: oh, it means the mother or father has history of eyesight or health problem….pra lang maputol na….
Daughter: So what is the eyesight of that girl?
Mommy: 500
Daughter: Why she have 500 vision, how about me?
Mommy: my eyesight at this age is still 20/20, so I think you’re vision could be probably the same. (this time I want to cut off the conversation, but then she asked the next question.
Daughter: What is 20/20 means? Maybe I am 30/30, I mean my vision…
Mommy: hehehe…..i really laugh very loud this time……do you have other questions?
Daughter: no, what is 20/20 why not 2/2 or 4/4?
Mommy: ok, I only know that 20/20 is a perfect vision, meaning you do not need to wear spectacle. If a child has 20/400 it means she has vision loss issue. Later I will show you the video how did they treat a person with eyesight problem using laser….
Daughter: ah ok, I am so excited to see
Mommy: Thank God…..she was satisfied with my answer, otherwise I have to explained what exactly is vision acuity means…..

Thankful

I am thankful for these two weeks of continuous recovery for hubby. He’s getting better and the appetite was back to normal. We just need to be careful for the food that we are taking outside.
When we had the chance to eat together for lunch during weekdays, I always asked him if he is OK to take the food the usual order….initially we’re anxious but then maybe that particular day when he got that problem was really came from spoil food stock.
Thanks for the brethren who prayed for us. God’s powerful hand has completely heal him…..

Recover

Thank GOD, he is recovering from that painful stomach problem...

Today we were able to attend the Church service and so happy to see everyone who had prayed for us. Thank GOD we're able to hear the encouragement from the WORD of GOD.

Holiday for our FBI class has ended and the first day of this semester would start tomorrow. Hope to have strength tomorrow and that the work schedule would allow me to attend the first session.....

Day 2

The fever was still very high 39.4 deg C this morning and the pain was even more painful than yesterday.
Last night, we hardly slept and rest because almost every hour we are taking break at the restroom.
What shall I do?
Called the hospital but the doctor wasn’t available yet because it was 6am in the morning and he would be on duty by 11am.
Tried to called at 11:25am but the doctor wasn’t available coz’ he’s in Resus…..what a test to my patience….. the nurse just insist to return to the hospital...
I tried to almost bathe him with cold water from the towel to lower down the temperature, giving him medicine every 4hrs. and enough fluid for his body but then it doesn’t help the pain are still causing him weak.
I had prayed and prayed and prayed, I know he is there…looking at us watching us how hubby is suffering for this terrible stomachache or flu…..
4:30pm was his next medication this afternoon, I was tired and having headache. I couldn’t tell him because I do not want him to worry too much. I was giddy after taking the medicine for headache I didn’t notice the rag was slippery and the next thing I notice I fell with my arms to cover my head and knock down on the floor….it was really painful and I couldn’t get up immediately. My arms has bruises but hubby reach out and help me to stand up with his painful stomach…..I was crying because of two things, the pain I had in my hand and my headache and at the same time about this chaos we had today...i don’t know why is this happening, but I do not want to give up….I came out from the toilet without my tears, pretend not affected with the pain.
About 6pm, when hubby felt slightly better I brought him to the clinic for check-up and asked for gastric medicine. I told the doctor again the whole history and he gave a prescription for gastric medicine.
Hope the medication make him better.
I thanked those bros. and sister in CHRIST who had prayed for us.
I just want to make this problem and pain end….

Stomach FLu

How should I describe it terrible, very bad, extreme or severe stomach flu.
That was the picture of suffering that hubby has experience last night. It was all started as a simple stomachache with a little discharge. Everything seems ok until suddenly he has very high fever and shivering like really very, very ill. I was scared but keep on praying that GOD would heal him until I force him to see doctor.
It was about 12midnight then, and when we reach the 24hrs clinic near our place he vomited many, many times until almost nothing to throw. I was really worried but I must be strong for him because it was only us there at the clinic. The physician was certain that it was from the food that he had taken that caused him with this condition. The food might be contaminated and has caused him terrible infection. I find myself useless because I couldn’t help him to at least lessen the pain. The jab that the doctor has given him looked like worsen his condition maybe because it took time for the medicine to take effect. He couldn’t walk and all he did was lie down in my lap at the clinic. I had to think what should I do this time, in my heart and mind I was praying and praying that we would be ok, but then every time he told me he couldn’t take it anymore I got into panic.
This time I had no choice I really need help to send him home because he could not walked, not only that but I need a prayer warrior to help us to stay focus and ask GOD to lead us what to do next. So I called our Pastor, though I know it is already late and asked for his help to send us home. Thank GOD he arrived and help us leave the clinic, unfortunately hubby is getting more and more serious and the pain level was really dreadful the more I hear him saying he couldn’t take it anymore and he is so tired I was really worried and terrified. I am not use to see him like this, he never had gastric or stomach flu before.
We decided to send him to the hospital to get more help, and arrived there about 1am. He was observed at the EA until 7am. Pastor stayed with us the whole time, and I really thank GOD and him for his love for us. On the way to the hospital we had prayed together and asked GOD for his mercy and healing hand to comfort hubby. God has delivered us to a Filipino doctor, and I also felt thankful because he really observed hubby well and immediately took blood sample for test. Thank GOD it was OK and normal no signs of dehydration so it was purely infections suspected from the food.
At the hospital he’s condition get’s better and he rested though he still complaint about the stomachache and very weak. He was discharge at 7am and we straight away go home and Pastor sent us home. This time I was also drained and tired for the whole day and night since I had no sleep and already more than 24hrs awake. But for my hubby I would do everything and take care of him during this not really good period. The challenge was because I had to be his nurse to monitor the fever, food and his medicine I still need to be awake for the whole day. Finally, about 11:30am I was able to nap for about 2hrs., had to wake up for his lunch and next medication.
While I was lovingly caring for him at the back of my mind I was thinking, what a test in our faith we had today. Hebrews 10:23 Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is faithful that promised;)
Thank GOD for his WORD that keep reminding us to be faithful and that HE would be always with us till the end.

Super fast LO's

Last month, my mom came to sg and visit us for 4 days together with my sister. We had great time visiting few places here in Singapore....We also had a chance to introduced her and my sis to our church bro. and sis. in CHRIST.

Since she had to stay 12hrs. for stopover in sg, I made her an 8x8 album with 40 pages slot with all those photos taken from our trip to UK last year together with her vacation in philippines and the short trip in SG.

Sis. I, help us to carry the album to London and that was my gift for my mom's bday in October.
Thank GOD she had the patience to carry the bag I know it was pretty heavy.......hehehe...I told her I will pay her in heaven.....

Many of them ask me how many days before I completed the album.....I was also surprised that I could do it that fast....the album with 40pages was completed in 2 nights.
I started to construct, cut photos, cut papers for LO on the first night that was thursday...i slept about 1 or 2am...hd to work on friday and after the office hrs. i started again at 9pm till 2am, patch, cut and paste...sat. morning had to prepare food for vbs and during my free time i manage to write all my journals on each pages....until I reached the location were we held the vbs....hehehe.....i thought i lost touch with scrapping......well....nde pala.....thank GOD my creativity is still intact......hahahah...

but, sad to say...i didn't had the chance to take the photos of the LO's.....maybe next time when I see the album again....

my mom and my sis was very happy to see the album.........

Busy

Busy days,
Lately there are too many issues here and there, specially sa work really toxic.
Minsan parang sasabog na ang utak ko sa kakaisip ng solution sa problema ng company at nga mga kasama. But I guess, I was employed to settle problems…hehehe…..
Things I missed this days….
· Eating burger king or mcdonald with angel. Actually I don’t like burgers, but few years back every sat. we had time to chit chat while taking breakfast together.
· Scrapping- tons of pictures to scrap but I had no time to sit and think..
· Window shopping- I used to have at least 2 to 3 times a month
· Chit chat with my old friends- well this one it is because they maybe also busy
· Dinner outside only with hubby- well when was the last time we had dinner together? If I am not wrong it was last year…too busy with our commitments.
Well, today I missed the parents meeting…sad to say the meeting that was called by my colleague was too soon and urgent and it leaves me no choice because my boss is also taking leave.
Hubby has relay the message and feedbacks from Angel teachers and I got teary eyes after his message.
1. There was a skit presentation last week and Angel was the narrator. At first I was also surprised because I know that she is very shy and seldom perform loud oral reading with us. She likes silent reading but very vocal in asking question. So when she was selected it wasn’t a doubt but I am worried that she would not do it. But with God’s grace and blessing of wisdom showered upon her, she deliver the whole skit confidently and without a mistake….yes!!thank GOD she has develop that kind of confidence.
2. Secondly, academically she was doing well for the last 2 semester and very obedient. The only thing is, sometimes she is worried to make mistakes and becoming perfectionist. But overall she’s leading comparing to the rest of students on her level.
3. The teacher was so touched with her affection and the appreciation she had shown towards them. One of the teacher was leaving, but before that she is the one who guided Angel and preparing her lunch during those times that she need to stay till 3pm. Angel wrote a thank you card and gave it to her with a note of appreciation and thanking her for being patience on her.

Sayang I missed this meeting……..due to my commitment at work…..hope my daughter would understand that in future..

At home she also makes lots of card and notes to us, akala ko sa haus lang sya ganyan. Last week, she made a card for our maid, very touching kasi nga thankful daw sya na nandyan un maid namin to look after her. Siguro mana…hahahaha…..kasi lagi nya kong nakikita gumagawa ng card..and sometimes those things I want her to remember like reminder I always wrote it and paste on her office.(that’s her table).

Well, sari-saring kwento……..

cookies, Cupcakes, baskets etc

Cookies, cupcakes, baskets and more........lately, i baked lots of cupcakes trying to make the perfect icing. It was fun, specially with my daughter helping me plus the bonding time it was really great and stress relieving. some of this cakes were decorated by her and it was her own idea...

Last month I had a chance to be part of the art class in our church during school holiday, i thought it would be disaster because it was my first time to host that kind of big crowd plus small little hands. but surprisingly, it turned out Good, not perfect but it was good with the help of our sisters, brothers in church....heheh...even our Pastor helped the kids to built their cookie basket. they went home happy.

i also had baked for a friend and the latest one was for jireh. hope he likes the small yellow cupcakes decorated with chocolate chips and gummy candies plus marsmallows.