Blessed

most of the time my expectation for my daughter is really high, i don't know why but I expected her to be always understanding, obedient and expecting high results on her tests.

if she didn't get 100% score for every test she's worried to call me and everytime she would tell me i have good news and a bad news, which one you would want to tell you first?

she would always tell me ok, just tell u the good news and decide later if u want to hear the bad news. Well the good news was 1 pf the test was 100 score and the other is only 88%....hahaha...i was thinking is that bad???for me it was yes because the min. score must be 90 not because it was my requirement but it was the curriculum requirement.

lately, she always get 100% and was very happy, because the last time she got 80% i punished her with carrying lots of heavy books for 20mins. and she doesn't want to repeat it.

aside from meeting her goals the curriculum normally encourage to give merits to its student and demerits for those who are not obeying the rules. in this case, she don't have any demerits because she's always obedient and afraid to make mistakes...

merits, then get something in exchange for their accumulated scores. most of the time she would buy things like pencils, erasers, notebook, things that are offered in learning center. The last merit gift was one of the special ones that really touched my heart as a mother.

i went to a business trip and cameback last friday, while taking dinner with my husband and our pastor's family noticed that my hubby's hankie is not familiar to me. at first i thought it was not his and mixed up on our laundry, but, it wasn't. it was a gift from our lovely and thoughtful daughter whom choose to buy gifts from her merits points for her daddy and mommy.
I got a yellow ball point pen wrap in a paper.

She wasn't able to fetch me at the airport that day and only manage to see in the morning. she kissed and greet me good morning giving her gift and saying I missed you a lot mommy, and i bought this one for you.

I felt blessed and could not speak for a few second thinking of what I always wanted of force her to study hard. This is one of the result, not much of the material thing but the thought of remembering us through her hard work to achieve those targets instead of rewarding herself....

I thank God for HIS gift, we just pray that she would grow with a GOD fearing and loving heart....and most specially to know the way of salvation.....

Ps 119:114 ¶ Thou art my hiding place and my shield: I hope in thy word.

Ps 119:114 ¶ Thou art my hiding place and my shield: I hope in thy word.

yan ang verse na ibinigay sa kin ng isang mapagmahal na kapatid sa PANGINOON upang pagtibayin ang aking kalooban....
sobrang dami ng mga nangyayari parang ang hirap malampasan, but thank GOD at meron mga taong nagmamahal na kahit man lang sa prayer eh natutulungan kami....

Ang tagal tagal ko ng di nag scrap parang nakalimutan ko na yatang me talent ako sa scrapbooking, bakit nga ba?

commitment sa work
responsibility sa bahay, sa pamilya
at marami pang iba....

sobrang stress, not just physically but mentally.......

i really do hope na matapos na isa-isa...
GOD answered one of our prayer....sana un iba pang struggles matapos na rin....

i am burn out and starting to loose my strong will.....

sabi nga ng pastor namin GOD seldom early but never late......

waiting for HIS answer......

bakit di ko magawa???

merong hangganan ang bawat bagay sa buhay ng tao...isa na run ang paghinga...
alam kong napakabait nya at sobra sobrang pagmamahal ang ibinigay nya, pero bakit ganon di ko masuklian ng 100%?????

kelangan ko ng strength ng forgiveness, ng courage para malagpasan lahat ng ito...matatapos din yan...sana nga lang di mabawasan ang pagmamahal nya....

bakit di ko magawa???